Coming Home Outfits

So I have been looking a LOT lately into some coming home outfits. I want it to be special. These are some favorites right now. So far I haven't seen a lot of boy stuff I like.


http://www.atterdagkids.com/p-4951-baby-biscotti-powdered-sugar-gown.aspx


http://www.atterdagkids.com/p-2545-kissy-kissy-new-kissy-dots-footie-white-with-yellow.aspx


http://www.atterdagkids.com/p-3695-kissy-kissy-premier-garden-butterflies-sack.aspx

8 Week Ultrasound

Today's ultrasound went perfectly. I am measuring EXACTLY 8w0d. I was measuring a few days behind at the 6 week appointment, so this is really good. The baby is 16.79mm and the HB was 174 BPM. Couldn't be more excited. So I don't think I need to see my RE any more, which is good and sad.

I am going to call tomorrow (if I can remember) to schedule my NT scan and possibly CVS. I have to wait till I am 11-12 weeks, but I need to schedule asap so it works for us.

Also, I asked the RE to make his "guess" on baby gender, and he is on team girl, so he thinks just like us.

Congratulations - This baby is a Fetus

Veins are very visible beneath your fetus' skin and fingers and toes are forming now during this week of pregnancy. Your fetus is developing intestines, although amazingly enough—they are developing outside of your baby's body and in the umbilical cord. When your baby is big enough, they will move inside the body where they belong!!

You are 2 months pregnant already! Some of your clothes may begin to feel a bit tight during this week of pregnancy, and you may notice that you have already started to gain weight. Most doctors recommend that during pregnancy, women should gain between 20-30 pounds. Watch your diet closely and make sure that you are getting adequate nutrition to nourish both you and your baby during your pregnancy.

- - How amazing, my little peanut has arms and legs growing. 2 months pregnant seems crazy to say too. I am so excited to see my peanut on the next ultrasound.

The bigger the investment the greater the return

This is a statement I heard when watching tv. I heard it in passing about something or another. Not important, just words. Except the moment I heard it I was in tears. Salty wet drops flooding my eyes and wetting my cheeks.

Over the past years we have been through SO many hard times. Month after month of periods showing and not getting pregnant. I got out of the military in hopes of getting pregnant right away and being a stay at home mom. But it didn't happen, so I went to school. I took every class I could and I built my business. Still no baby. Then it was time for fertility dr's, tests, and more disappointment. At this point we live in terms of months. What cycle number is this? And if I get pregnant this month, when will my baby be born.

But I know, deep down, when this little bean I am carrying is born, the return will be magnificent. I won't take motherhood for granted. I will love with all my heart. My heart will finally be full with this one thing my life has revolved around for years. However, until this baby is safe in my arms, I can't rejoice in that return just yet. I'm still holding my breath, waiting to see if this is really happening. I believe it is, but as we have seen you can never be sure. So while I have little angels above watching over this baby, I still wait.

And I am SO excited and ready for that day when I can cash in my chips and be a survivor of infertility. This doesn't mean I won't need IVF again, but it will mean that I made it. All the way, I will be a mom.

Down the Road of Bittersweet - Karl Kohlhase Lyrics

What an amazing song,I had to share this.

We had some good news and some bad news on a cold November morn
The test confirmed that we were parents, but there was something more
Our little boy had complications, and we were frightened as could be
But we decided to go walking down the road of bittersweet

The next nine months we grew together, somehow closer than before
And our faith began to blossom into something more
We would hold each other close and pray, then cry ourselves to sleep
We knew that God was walking with us down the road of bittersweet

Jesus, take my hand and walk beside me
And make my footsteps firm beneath my feet
I know You’ve gone this way before so guide me
I’m not alone as I go walking down the road of bittersweet

The room was filled with apprehension on the day that he was born
But when I took him in my arms I knew there was so much more
There was a bond of love between us, and I was never more complete
I never knew I’d find such blessing down the road of bittersweet

The doctor said we may not have much time before we’d have to part
So I treasure every moment deep within my heart
Soon we’ll have a little angel, praying for our family
I’m just glad I got to meet him down the road of bittersweet

Jesus, take my hand and walk beside me
And make my footsteps firm beneath my feet
I know You’ve gone this way before so guide me
I’m not alone as I go walking down the road
I’m not alone as I go walking down the road
I’m not alone as I go walking down the road of bittersweet

6 week ultrasound and car trouble

First off, you have to know it takes us an hour and a half to drive to the dr office. So anyway, we got there on time, and we were out in 10 minutes. Works for me since you have to pay for parking.

Baby is measuring 2.29mm (5weeks, 5days) and the HB was a strong one at 113 bpm *we weren't able to hear, but Dr Q could measure it. That made us BOTH feel great.

Then there was the rest of the evening. A little back story. I have had a slow leak lately, so Tim told me to purchase some fix a flat, and yesterday morning he put it in and drive my car to work. I had his truck for its oil change. We take my car everywhere, so when he got home from work, we pumped the tire to be sure it was full enough. Drove and had no problems. Then when we backed out of the parking space, it sounded funny/ My tire completely deflated and fell off the rim. Luckily we were in a safe place (its LA) and so we backed back into our space. We pulled the spare out and Tim started working on changing it. While he did that, I started looking for a place to get a new tire. He was able to work through 3 of the lug nuts, but the last two weren't budging. And the crappy tool that comes with the jack began to mushroom as the pressure bent the metal. It was no longer tight around the lug nuts, becoming useless. We were both getting frustrated, but at this point, there was nothing he could do. Even if he did get it off, how would he tighten the spare on?

So we called our insurance roadside assistance, they send a tow truck out to change the tire. In this time we located a Big O Tire shop that was sending a guy out to get us a tire. $160 for a new tire, ouch. So we waited. The tow truck guy came, but in the mean time, Tim got one more lug nut lose. The tow truck guy filled us in on how not goof the fix a flat stuff is, and its only meant for 50 miles till you fix your tire. I had no idea. But while we waited, we did find a nail puncturing my tire.

So the guy pulls out his tools, and what I refer to as the "Nascar Gun" because I keep forgetting the actual name. Even he couldn't get the last lug nut on. It took him 4 tries, and only worked when he re-tightened the other lug nuts to have more even pressure, then it came loose. He got the tire off, and in his opinion, we could patch the tire as opposed to replacing it. Works for me. So we leave the parking garage to head to the Big O Tires. They were really nice and even got us in right away. They weren't sure if a patch would work on the tire because it wasn't very far in, so the inside was angled, but they gave it a try. Sure enough, it seems to have worked. And it only cost $18, much better then $160. So we drove home, arriving about 2 hours later then planned. NO dinner planned and poor Tim having school to catch up on. Ugh. But we have a safe and happily growing jellybean inside me.

Overwhelmed

I am completely overwhelmed right now. Tomorrow is the ultrasound to see a heartbeat and I am terrified. Tim even mentioned being a bit nervous last night too. And I know we have reason to be nervous.

Some good things about this pregnancy so far... My betas started out higher then last time. And I am not bleeding like I was last time (keeping fingers crossed). Last time I bled at 5weeks 1 day, and 3 days. On the 5w3d I had some small clots. I bled more again at 9weeks 3 days, and at 12 weeks. I am thankful I haven't been bleeding this time, but I am still terrified.

I know when we see a strong hb tomorrow it will ease me some, but there won't be that settled fear until 12 weeks when we have the NT scan, and again when I can feel this baby kick. Ruth never kicked, there was no fluid, so hopefully this baby will kick early.

Cramping

So far this pregnancy is going smooth and has been uneventful. But today I am completely exhausted and my stomach is SO full of cramps. I know this is normal, but my scared side is just filled with fear. I want so bad to make it through this pregnancy with no scares. No low heartbeat, no bleeding, no scary ultrasounds, and no lack of symptoms making me wonder.

My boobs have been pretty sore and I have been exhausted no matter how much I sleep at night. And well I can't stop eating, however I think thats because of being bored. Not to mention, my stomach looks HUGE right now. I swear I feel like I am twice the size I was when I was 21 weeks with Ruth.

Ugh, ok well, only 6 more says till the ultrasound to see this/ these beans heartbeat.