The journey from infertility to family,
someone once said,
is like taking a train ride;
Never knowing whether
you'll reach your desired destination.
There are plenty of stops along the ride.
And each of the passengers
makes it's own decision
when its time to get off.
Some never need to take the train.
Others ride it for a lifetime.
But whether you reach your destination or not,
pay attention to the journey.
If you will,
as painful as it is,
it may reward you in unexpected ways.
what else is new {losing it yet again}
So, today I feel like I hit a wall. Later I will write more about what I read about the MTHFR. That broke me down a bit.
Anyway, today I woke in a terrible mood. Last night I was really cranky because my sister (visiting for 6 weeks) was being very strong willed and just over the top. So I woke up and was really short tempered all day. I realized it but couldn't control it. I figured its just bloods on there way. I mean its only about 5 days till I start and I've been getting shorter so it will likely be sooner.
Then I changed into comfy clothes. I took off my bra and my boobs just hurt. The first time in so long that it was my boob and not just the nip. So I questioned it. I started grabbing on to anything hoping it could mean what I hoped. However I know its no good to do so because it just makes it worse. I even found myself asking G.o.d. To let this finally e our turn. I know that's now how it works but whatever.
I'm just so sick of this. Its too far to see a fertility Dr and too soon to do adoption papers. I'm just at a wall where I have absolutely no control.
I feel like I'm losing it.
Anyway, today I woke in a terrible mood. Last night I was really cranky because my sister (visiting for 6 weeks) was being very strong willed and just over the top. So I woke up and was really short tempered all day. I realized it but couldn't control it. I figured its just bloods on there way. I mean its only about 5 days till I start and I've been getting shorter so it will likely be sooner.
Then I changed into comfy clothes. I took off my bra and my boobs just hurt. The first time in so long that it was my boob and not just the nip. So I questioned it. I started grabbing on to anything hoping it could mean what I hoped. However I know its no good to do so because it just makes it worse. I even found myself asking G.o.d. To let this finally e our turn. I know that's now how it works but whatever.
I'm just so sick of this. Its too far to see a fertility Dr and too soon to do adoption papers. I'm just at a wall where I have absolutely no control.
I feel like I'm losing it.
The 3 day nursing sabbatical
I am still transferring things from my old blog, so I will add these in, but will likely change the date down the road so they aren't in the middle of my IVF stuff.
The 3 day nursing sabbatical
So… what is a 3 day nursing sabbatical? (Desperate? Skip down to get to the nitty gritty instructions).
A 3 day nursing sabbatical is really the cure-all for most of the common early problems in Bfing. Low supply particularly, but even poor latch, nipple confusion, etc can all benefit. Its really useful if you’ve found yourself in the viscious cycle of trying to get baby to stay interested, nurse more, increase supply, reduce formula, get where you don’t have to pump as frequently, etc. This is also ideal for growth spurts (in fact, its darn near mandatory).
All too often the story goes something like this: wonderful woman meets cute guy, they fall in love they have kids, they have grand plans. Wonderful woman plans wonderful birth. Things may or may not go as expected, but most often NOT as expected. Shes spent 9 months reading all about how to have a great birth, what colors to paint the nursery for the best developmental stimulus, and how to escape it all without too much damage to show for it while still enjoying and tolerating the stretch marks that don her belly. Then – she has the baby and realizes, NOBODY told her the half million things that might come up as she nurses her baby, who seems to be also clueless about what to do. Also news - theres a difference between lactation counselors and consultants, few pediatricians receive any training about breastfeeding, and the ones that did apparently missed that day of class b/c they had a frat party the night before. (Oh come on – you think he was a saint in college?!)
So – here you are – a postpartum mom, trying to figure out nursing in a world where few people you know nurse (IF you even know someone). You’ve been sent home with formula samples out your ears, and maybe you used a few those first few nights (b/c nobody told you that they just happen to discharge you before things really get moving in the BFing department, and that 3rd night is when all babies decide they want to stay up allllllllll night long although they slept like angels the first few nights).
OR maybe you got “lucky” and your baby is sleeping a LOT – and as a result not nursing quite as much. And to get by, or to satisfy your paranoia, or to let dad feed the baby, you’ve given a few bottles of milk (pumped or artificial). And now – youre stuck. Baby never seems satisfied. Baby is constantly hungry. Laundry is piling up and you don’t know what to do? The 3 day sabbatical is for you.
WHAT TO DO:
First things first. Pull out the calendar. The one you used BEFORE the baby came along that organized your life that you can barely keep up with now that it takes an hour to get out of the house from the 2 diaper changes and 3 outfit changes (1 for you and 2 for baby). WIPE EVERYTHING OFF FOR THE NEXT 3 DAYS! Soccer practice – gone. Lunch date – cancel it. Drs appt – only if its serious lol. Moms coming over – give her a list of to-dos. Church – God will understand, I promise. Call DH & tell him youre ordering pizza for the next 3 nights, unless hed like to reheat leftovers, bring home Chinese food, or make grilled cheese (unless you were the lucky one that got the DH that could cook, and then I’m jealous).
Find a good book – maybe the BFing book that’s been gathering dust the last 10 months. Have DH bring home all the trash magazines so you can catch up on all the celebrity goodness. Whatever floats your boat. Grab a comforter, a pillow, the remote, some snacks and a lot of water and find a comfy place in front of a TV. That’s your home for the next 3 days. Give up your anxiety now, the laundry will not walk off, it will be there in 3 days and your DH could use another job anyways!
Now – strip down from the waist up. Yes, you’re probably leaking more than the rickety faucet in the downstairs bathroom. That’s ok. Now, strip baby down to just a diaper. Which reminds me – grab a handful of diapers, wipes, and the bathroom trash can to put next to the couch. Turn up the heat if you must, but really – your body heat will do the job.
Your job for the next 3 days is to feed the baby. That’s all. No laundry. No cooking. No cleaning. You can take a shower if you’re one of the lucky ones that has a baby that will sleep when DH comes home. But, really – its not necessary. Baby likes the way you smell
Nurse nurse nurse. The reason this works so well is:
1 – you’ve finally succumbed to motherhood. Priorities priorities priorities. This is your ONLY job. Until you get this down pat, nothing will fall into place. When you have this down pat, everything else will run smoother, including your brain
2 – skin to skin contact. The skin to skin contact, even if baby barely nurses at all the first day, will do more for the baby than just about any other single thing you can do.
3 – Being naked will give you an unobstructed view of what is going on down there. Is baby’s latch good (for the answer, pull out that dusty BFing book). Tongue should be slightly visible, both lips puckered out like a fish’s, and you should hear gulping, not clicking.
4 – Interest in the breast – this is why the leaking happens. Baby knows the smell of milk- baby will get interested in the breast, will root around, and will start to get the hang of things
5 – because you have nothing else to do except nurse – baby will nurse probably ALLLLLLLLLLLL day and your supply will increase naturally as a result.
Now – those diapers. Count em. From the time you get up till the end of the evening – count diapers. If baby is under a week old, you should get at least 1 diaper per day of life (3 days old = 3 dirty diapers). For babies over 1 week old, look for 5 – 6 wet/poopy diapers a day. Because you don’t have anything else to do but nurse, change diapers, and keep up with which celeb is in rehab again, you can change frequently and don’t have to worry if that diaper had one pee pee or two. Having trouble determining whether its wet (b/c they don’t dump a gallon of pee when theyre that little)? Well, you could leave them naked but assuming you don’t want to call an upholstery cleaner at the end of the 3 days, place a piece of toilet paper in the diaper when you change the baby. By the next diaper change if the TP is obviously wet, then you know baby peed. The super absorbent diapers can be hard to tell but this makes it easier.
IF you don’t have enough wet diapers, you can supplement an ounce or two (base your judgement off of how many diapers you got).
Check these links for more info:
http://www.kellymom.com/bf/pumping/milkcalc.html
http://www.kellymom.com/newman/04enough_milk.html
This usually works. You can do fenugreek and mothers milk tea if you need, just add that to the pile in your nest on the couch. Fenugreek is usually around 3 – 4 pills, 3 – 4 times a day for a total of 9 – 12 pills (you should smell like maple syrup within a day or two). You should be taking in a lot of fluids as well. But rest assured, if youre getting enough wet/poopy diapers, your baby is getting enough milk.
Read more: http://www.justmommies.com/forums/f30-breastfeeding/970448-3-day-nursing-sabbatical.html#ixzz0JEe4t3Rr&C
The 3 day nursing sabbatical
So… what is a 3 day nursing sabbatical? (Desperate? Skip down to get to the nitty gritty instructions).
A 3 day nursing sabbatical is really the cure-all for most of the common early problems in Bfing. Low supply particularly, but even poor latch, nipple confusion, etc can all benefit. Its really useful if you’ve found yourself in the viscious cycle of trying to get baby to stay interested, nurse more, increase supply, reduce formula, get where you don’t have to pump as frequently, etc. This is also ideal for growth spurts (in fact, its darn near mandatory).
All too often the story goes something like this: wonderful woman meets cute guy, they fall in love they have kids, they have grand plans. Wonderful woman plans wonderful birth. Things may or may not go as expected, but most often NOT as expected. Shes spent 9 months reading all about how to have a great birth, what colors to paint the nursery for the best developmental stimulus, and how to escape it all without too much damage to show for it while still enjoying and tolerating the stretch marks that don her belly. Then – she has the baby and realizes, NOBODY told her the half million things that might come up as she nurses her baby, who seems to be also clueless about what to do. Also news - theres a difference between lactation counselors and consultants, few pediatricians receive any training about breastfeeding, and the ones that did apparently missed that day of class b/c they had a frat party the night before. (Oh come on – you think he was a saint in college?!)
So – here you are – a postpartum mom, trying to figure out nursing in a world where few people you know nurse (IF you even know someone). You’ve been sent home with formula samples out your ears, and maybe you used a few those first few nights (b/c nobody told you that they just happen to discharge you before things really get moving in the BFing department, and that 3rd night is when all babies decide they want to stay up allllllllll night long although they slept like angels the first few nights).
OR maybe you got “lucky” and your baby is sleeping a LOT – and as a result not nursing quite as much. And to get by, or to satisfy your paranoia, or to let dad feed the baby, you’ve given a few bottles of milk (pumped or artificial). And now – youre stuck. Baby never seems satisfied. Baby is constantly hungry. Laundry is piling up and you don’t know what to do? The 3 day sabbatical is for you.
WHAT TO DO:
First things first. Pull out the calendar. The one you used BEFORE the baby came along that organized your life that you can barely keep up with now that it takes an hour to get out of the house from the 2 diaper changes and 3 outfit changes (1 for you and 2 for baby). WIPE EVERYTHING OFF FOR THE NEXT 3 DAYS! Soccer practice – gone. Lunch date – cancel it. Drs appt – only if its serious lol. Moms coming over – give her a list of to-dos. Church – God will understand, I promise. Call DH & tell him youre ordering pizza for the next 3 nights, unless hed like to reheat leftovers, bring home Chinese food, or make grilled cheese (unless you were the lucky one that got the DH that could cook, and then I’m jealous).
Find a good book – maybe the BFing book that’s been gathering dust the last 10 months. Have DH bring home all the trash magazines so you can catch up on all the celebrity goodness. Whatever floats your boat. Grab a comforter, a pillow, the remote, some snacks and a lot of water and find a comfy place in front of a TV. That’s your home for the next 3 days. Give up your anxiety now, the laundry will not walk off, it will be there in 3 days and your DH could use another job anyways!
Now – strip down from the waist up. Yes, you’re probably leaking more than the rickety faucet in the downstairs bathroom. That’s ok. Now, strip baby down to just a diaper. Which reminds me – grab a handful of diapers, wipes, and the bathroom trash can to put next to the couch. Turn up the heat if you must, but really – your body heat will do the job.
Your job for the next 3 days is to feed the baby. That’s all. No laundry. No cooking. No cleaning. You can take a shower if you’re one of the lucky ones that has a baby that will sleep when DH comes home. But, really – its not necessary. Baby likes the way you smell
Nurse nurse nurse. The reason this works so well is:
1 – you’ve finally succumbed to motherhood. Priorities priorities priorities. This is your ONLY job. Until you get this down pat, nothing will fall into place. When you have this down pat, everything else will run smoother, including your brain
2 – skin to skin contact. The skin to skin contact, even if baby barely nurses at all the first day, will do more for the baby than just about any other single thing you can do.
3 – Being naked will give you an unobstructed view of what is going on down there. Is baby’s latch good (for the answer, pull out that dusty BFing book). Tongue should be slightly visible, both lips puckered out like a fish’s, and you should hear gulping, not clicking.
4 – Interest in the breast – this is why the leaking happens. Baby knows the smell of milk- baby will get interested in the breast, will root around, and will start to get the hang of things
5 – because you have nothing else to do except nurse – baby will nurse probably ALLLLLLLLLLLL day and your supply will increase naturally as a result.
Now – those diapers. Count em. From the time you get up till the end of the evening – count diapers. If baby is under a week old, you should get at least 1 diaper per day of life (3 days old = 3 dirty diapers). For babies over 1 week old, look for 5 – 6 wet/poopy diapers a day. Because you don’t have anything else to do but nurse, change diapers, and keep up with which celeb is in rehab again, you can change frequently and don’t have to worry if that diaper had one pee pee or two. Having trouble determining whether its wet (b/c they don’t dump a gallon of pee when theyre that little)? Well, you could leave them naked but assuming you don’t want to call an upholstery cleaner at the end of the 3 days, place a piece of toilet paper in the diaper when you change the baby. By the next diaper change if the TP is obviously wet, then you know baby peed. The super absorbent diapers can be hard to tell but this makes it easier.
IF you don’t have enough wet diapers, you can supplement an ounce or two (base your judgement off of how many diapers you got).
Check these links for more info:
http://www.kellymom.com/bf/pumping/milk
http://www.kellymom.com/newman/04enough
This usually works. You can do fenugreek and mothers milk tea if you need, just add that to the pile in your nest on the couch. Fenugreek is usually around 3 – 4 pills, 3 – 4 times a day for a total of 9 – 12 pills (you should smell like maple syrup within a day or two). You should be taking in a lot of fluids as well. But rest assured, if youre getting enough wet/poopy diapers, your baby is getting enough milk.
Read more: http://www.justmommies.com/forums/f30-b
Wouldn't you know it
I have been struggling a little with how bad everything still hurts. I don't remember this from last time one big. This morning I woke up at 2am to pee because when I don't pee my insides start throbbing. Well I looked back at the last IVF cycle (post here) and sure enough, its the same as last time. Funny how your memory missed things like that in terms of storing for the long haul.
I also wanted to go look at my transfer day entry. I didn't remember really explaining the process, and last night I tried to remember how it went, but my memory failed me yet again. But I was right, and I didn't post anything great. So this time I will try to post more about how the day goes. I am so excited right now and haven't been back to sleep this morning. I think I will just take a nap today, I mean they do want you on bed rest.
So Ill be back to write again when I get home later today.
I also wanted to go look at my transfer day entry. I didn't remember really explaining the process, and last night I tried to remember how it went, but my memory failed me yet again. But I was right, and I didn't post anything great. So this time I will try to post more about how the day goes. I am so excited right now and haven't been back to sleep this morning. I think I will just take a nap today, I mean they do want you on bed rest.
So Ill be back to write again when I get home later today.
5 Fact Friday
I read about this in another blog, and I will try to take it on. We shall see if I can do this every Friday.
1. I don't take my camera as many places as I should, lately I haven't taken any pictures for me.
2. I am the middle child of 5. OB - 28, OS - 27, Me - 25, YB - 19, YS - 10
3. I love having the animals in bed with me and I worry I will want the kids there too, there just isn't enough room.
4. I miss Michigan daily, but don't think it would ever be the same if we moved there.
5. I have loved pickles since I was a kid, now that I am older, I avoid them in public because people always ask if I am pregnant.
1. I don't take my camera as many places as I should, lately I haven't taken any pictures for me.
2. I am the middle child of 5. OB - 28, OS - 27, Me - 25, YB - 19, YS - 10
3. I love having the animals in bed with me and I worry I will want the kids there too, there just isn't enough room.
4. I miss Michigan daily, but don't think it would ever be the same if we moved there.
5. I have loved pickles since I was a kid, now that I am older, I avoid them in public because people always ask if I am pregnant.
So torn
How many embryos to transfer? This has been the 3 day long debockle and its all I can think about. I know Tim will support me no matter what, but I don't want to take on more then I can handle because I am scared. It is between 2 and 3 embryos that we will transfer. There are a few things to consider, and I am just torn. I was up most the night unable to sleep because its all I could think about.
Tim thinks we should put two back again, as we did last time. They will both likely be high quality. If for some reason they weren't as good of quality, then we would definitely go for 3.
Last night I was looking at the CDC statistics for my age and that they will be fresh non donor eggs and sperm. This is what I learned as far as statistics go.
A Single baby will result and become a live birth about 61% of the time
Twins will result and become live births about 28% of the time
Triplets will result and become live births 1.8% of the time.
To me, that's pretty unlikely, but still a chance. As Tim reminded me, all Ruth's issues were so incredible rare and yet we ended up with her and her issues. That would be my BIGGEST fear at this point. I am terrified of putting two back and having a repeat of the last time. But if two eggs make two babies, I will be shocked and if three eggs make two babies I would be so happy, even though still surprised.
I'm not sure. I think we will be on the fence till I am laying on that cold metal procedure tale, legs spread yet again before we spout out that number that will determine our fate as a family. Last time I chose 2 even though I wanted 3 and was disappointed to have gotten pregnant and still have no baby. I regret not putting 3 back, I might have a baby right now had we put 3 back in.
Fear is my main roadblock to making a decision I am confident with. I don't want to decide out of fear, however I am struggling to decide rationally.
Tim thinks we should put two back again, as we did last time. They will both likely be high quality. If for some reason they weren't as good of quality, then we would definitely go for 3.
Last night I was looking at the CDC statistics for my age and that they will be fresh non donor eggs and sperm. This is what I learned as far as statistics go.
A Single baby will result and become a live birth about 61% of the time
Twins will result and become live births about 28% of the time
Triplets will result and become live births 1.8% of the time.
To me, that's pretty unlikely, but still a chance. As Tim reminded me, all Ruth's issues were so incredible rare and yet we ended up with her and her issues. That would be my BIGGEST fear at this point. I am terrified of putting two back and having a repeat of the last time. But if two eggs make two babies, I will be shocked and if three eggs make two babies I would be so happy, even though still surprised.
I'm not sure. I think we will be on the fence till I am laying on that cold metal procedure tale, legs spread yet again before we spout out that number that will determine our fate as a family. Last time I chose 2 even though I wanted 3 and was disappointed to have gotten pregnant and still have no baby. I regret not putting 3 back, I might have a baby right now had we put 3 back in.
Fear is my main roadblock to making a decision I am confident with. I don't want to decide out of fear, however I am struggling to decide rationally.
Deedah Trailer
Some may not know this but Ruth had downs syndrome. This touches my heart. I LOVE when he says he has Up syndrome. I had to share with anyone who reads this.
Egg Retrieval
Today was the big day. My estrogen results were good yesterday at 3709 and so that means we are good to transfer this cycle. We had our retrieval scheduled for 11am today but they were running a little late and many people we frazzled. No worries though. The anesthesiologist did my IV and put some numbing stuff in my vein first, so that went great. I was able to walk in and was out of it pretty quick. Then I woke up right as they were about to transfer me from the surgery bed to the one that takes me into the recovery area. The dr said the procedure only takes about 15 minutes so that was good. I was finally up and aware and Tim came in and said 18. I wasn't that aware yet and didn't know what he was talking about. 18 egg, thats how many they received.
While I was still coming to, Tim and Dr Q talked for a minute. Dr Q told him we have to do a day 3 transfer because he wants me to have downtime before we fly to Georgia, so the embies will be going back in on Saturday at 9am. They also discussed how many we want to put back in. I was set on 3, but the Dr wants me to do 2. I know it makes more sense and I am ok with that, but I am scared of the what if's.
What if we get another case like Ruth, and thats the only baby in there?
What if it just doesn't work?
So I really still want to put 3 in, but Tim and Dr Q are worried if all 3 take. So I need to really think about it right now, but I am still leaning towards 3.
So that is that. Dr Q will call tomorrow with the fertilization report and let us know how they look. They way he came off to Tim was that he expects a much better result. He thinks they are better quality eggs this time and that we will have more to choose from.
While I was still coming to, Tim and Dr Q talked for a minute. Dr Q told him we have to do a day 3 transfer because he wants me to have downtime before we fly to Georgia, so the embies will be going back in on Saturday at 9am. They also discussed how many we want to put back in. I was set on 3, but the Dr wants me to do 2. I know it makes more sense and I am ok with that, but I am scared of the what if's.
What if we get another case like Ruth, and thats the only baby in there?
What if it just doesn't work?
So I really still want to put 3 in, but Tim and Dr Q are worried if all 3 take. So I need to really think about it right now, but I am still leaning towards 3.
So that is that. Dr Q will call tomorrow with the fertilization report and let us know how they look. They way he came off to Tim was that he expects a much better result. He thinks they are better quality eggs this time and that we will have more to choose from.
Estrogen levels
First off, the nurse said it was ok that I missed that one shot. Phew, I was so worried. I stayed up so tired last night to take my shot and was able to sleep till just after 9am this morning. The shot went well and I was able to give it to myself. It didn't even hurt.
I also called the dr office this morning to get my Estrogen levels. Like I said, anything over 5000 and they won't do the transfer because of OHSS, well my level was 3709, YEAH!!!!! Its on now.
Just need to decide how many embies we want to transfer back in. Its between 3-4, not sure though.
I also called the dr office this morning to get my Estrogen levels. Like I said, anything over 5000 and they won't do the transfer because of OHSS, well my level was 3709, YEAH!!!!! Its on now.
Just need to decide how many embies we want to transfer back in. Its between 3-4, not sure though.
Retrieval date set
Wednesday is the day. I am trying my hardest to stay up late to take m HCG shot tonight at midnight. We go in on Wednesday morning for the egg retrieval. They took my blood today to check my Estrogen. Anything over 5000 and they will retrieve the eggs but freeze them and hold off a couple months before transferring them. This is because of OHSS and the Dr seemed very worried today about it. I still have 22 eggs so no new growths since Friday, but they are pretty big he said. I looked and last time my estrogen was 3923. So in the morning I will call and hopefully get the new number.
I am really excited and nervous all at once. I can't believe how fast this is going, but its a good thing, I am not complaining.
I am really mad at myself tonight. A little back story. When I wasin on Friday the Dr was trying to decide how much medicine to distribute to make everything work. Well I was limited on meds and so he was trying to make it all fit. Anyway, the nurse wrote it all down as he changed it at least 4 times. But the computer wasn't working so they were supposed to email me my new calendar later. I missed the email at 3:30ish and didn't see it till about 7pm. The problem was, the calendar did not reflect what we discussed and I didn't have enough meds to meet what was on there. So I called in but they were closed. I was sent to an answering service where they connected me with Dr Q. He advised me to go ahead with what we discussed. So I did, and I just didn't look back at the new calendar that was wrong. Problem. I was supposed to take 1/2 a dose of the Ganerillex in my arm last night, and I didn't. That is what keeps me from ovulating too early. I am a little worried now. I have a ton of cramping but there is nothing I can do at this point. I am just praying for the best right now. I tried to reply to the email, but no one responded because it was the end of the day.
So, in just 37 hours I will be in surgery to take my eggs out. I am praying so hard things work well, we have numerous embryos to choose from, we get pregnant with a healthy baby or two, and that infertility can become a thing from our past.
Oh, and when I was there today, I mentioned to Dr Q that although we only did 2 embies last time, I wanted to put more in this time. He laughed and said he wouldn't put 8 in. It made me laugh so hard. I don' want 8, hell no. I told him I just wanted 3-4 and he said ok. It was just so funny.
I am really excited and nervous all at once. I can't believe how fast this is going, but its a good thing, I am not complaining.
I am really mad at myself tonight. A little back story. When I wasin on Friday the Dr was trying to decide how much medicine to distribute to make everything work. Well I was limited on meds and so he was trying to make it all fit. Anyway, the nurse wrote it all down as he changed it at least 4 times. But the computer wasn't working so they were supposed to email me my new calendar later. I missed the email at 3:30ish and didn't see it till about 7pm. The problem was, the calendar did not reflect what we discussed and I didn't have enough meds to meet what was on there. So I called in but they were closed. I was sent to an answering service where they connected me with Dr Q. He advised me to go ahead with what we discussed. So I did, and I just didn't look back at the new calendar that was wrong. Problem. I was supposed to take 1/2 a dose of the Ganerillex in my arm last night, and I didn't. That is what keeps me from ovulating too early. I am a little worried now. I have a ton of cramping but there is nothing I can do at this point. I am just praying for the best right now. I tried to reply to the email, but no one responded because it was the end of the day.
So, in just 37 hours I will be in surgery to take my eggs out. I am praying so hard things work well, we have numerous embryos to choose from, we get pregnant with a healthy baby or two, and that infertility can become a thing from our past.
Oh, and when I was there today, I mentioned to Dr Q that although we only did 2 embies last time, I wanted to put more in this time. He laughed and said he wouldn't put 8 in. It made me laugh so hard. I don' want 8, hell no. I told him I just wanted 3-4 and he said ok. It was just so funny.
Nothing
In my efforts to look for the perfect maternity shirt, I decided to make my own. This is what it will say...
My 3 loves...
My sweet loves...
#1: My pets. 2 dogs, and a cat who all come running to greet me every time I have been away. They wake me with sweet kisses every single morning, and love me all day long. They happen to also be the most forgiving creatures with an unending amount of love to give.
#2: A good job. Although I am not working, my husband has been so blessed to have a good job to support us. It also happens to be a job he enjoys. I have the honor of making his lunches daily, take care of his work clothes, and being his sounding board when he gets home each day.
#3: My camera, oh how I love my camera. I swear I wouldn't enjoy life with out being able to photograph it. I use my camera as an excuse... A reason to go places, a reason to scrapbook, and a reason to document life.
#1: My pets. 2 dogs, and a cat who all come running to greet me every time I have been away. They wake me with sweet kisses every single morning, and love me all day long. They happen to also be the most forgiving creatures with an unending amount of love to give.
#2: A good job. Although I am not working, my husband has been so blessed to have a good job to support us. It also happens to be a job he enjoys. I have the honor of making his lunches daily, take care of his work clothes, and being his sounding board when he gets home each day.
#3: My camera, oh how I love my camera. I swear I wouldn't enjoy life with out being able to photograph it. I use my camera as an excuse... A reason to go places, a reason to scrapbook, and a reason to document life.
What a steal
Today I purchased a really nice baby bassinet for $15 off craigslist. There are a few small stains but I am going to try and spot treat them. It also has a little basket on the bottom to hold things like wipes, diapers, a change of clothes, or whatever. And it has the cutest animals ever on it.
A Plus, its organic and SO soft.
A Plus, its organic and SO soft.
What a sting
My shots have begun. I took the first on on Friday and was surprised at how nervous I was. Earlier in the day I had my ultrasound appointment to make sure everything looked good. There was a resident dr there and she started the u/s and found my right ovary. My left was much harder to see, but Dr. Q found it and said everything looks good to start. So I took my shot, then again on Saturday. Last nights shot was much more painful and that took me by surprise. I have never had an issue with my belly shots, but this particular one stung pretty bad. So tonight we do it again, no biggie. I have another u/s tomorrow to see how they are growing. Dr Q thinks we can get a large number again like we did last time. I am so excited still. And it feels like its all moving so slow, but the reality is as soon as the month is over it will be so quick. The day to day however feels so slow in passing time. I think our little family visiting vacation will be the perfect thing to keep me going in the dreaded 2-week-wait.
