Grey's Anatomy

This week I have decided to watch the seasons of Grey's Anatomy.I haven't ever seen it before and I am definitely loving it so far. I am currently in the third season. Although I feel like a complete dop laughing so hard alone, I don't mind being alone when I cry. Its about all I did yesterday. I can't stop thinking about Ruth.

Yesterday there was an episode that hit me. A woman on there was pregnant with quint girls from IVF. 4 had complications and one in particular was watched. She had the same heart problem that Ruth was diagnosed with. That one really got to me. Then today, another episode and the baby had a diaphragmatic hernia. Again I cried for Ruth and I think of what would have been. I know its just a tv show, but it gives me a little bit of peace. I am at peace with Ruth passing, even though I miss her terribly. Then today, a baby was still born, and the dr had the perfect line. She said "Good things should happen to good people." She was devastated over telling her patient their baby had died, because they were so happy to be having a family.

So Grey's, I have fallen for you. And you give me some subtle comfort.

Amnio Results

So today I called the dr office about getting the results from our amnio. We had this done one month ago exactly. I have wanted to call the last few days, but by the time I remember it, it was 3pm here and then they were closed. So, today I called and got the machine so I left a message.

Anyway, so the genetics councilor called me back not even 20 minutes later.

And we have results.

Downs Syndrome

But its not a case of typical downs, that's why it wasn't found on the CVS test at 13 weeks. Instead of having an extra copy of chromosome 21, she only had some extra genes instead of an entire extra chromosome. The woman I talked with doesn't think this is something we are passing on though. She explained it this way. If we had this defect, we wouldn't be able to live with it. So that would mean we don't have the gene issue, so we aren't passing it on. The chance of this happening again is SO low. Mainly because it was a fluke when her cells were dividing in the beginning.

So its great to have an answer. We have to wait a few weeks still for the autopsy results but we are getting answers. We are really hoping that we get a good idea of all her issues inside because that is what was life threatening to her.

But for the most part, this just reconfirmed that she would not have been able to live had she been born full term.