40 week update

Well it's my due date. Should I be excited? Maybe. I feel defeated still with no progress really. No contractions lately. But I have my induction scheduled and by this time next week I'll be holding my little man whose yet to be named. 

Weight 199.8 (weighed after a shower and again after drying my hair lol)

I feel ok. Pee 30 times a day, struggle to be comfortable, can't finish a full meal, wince with every kick and movement, and am emotional. I still love it. And I know it's almost over. It doesn't feel real yet. I feel a lot slower these days but in keeping up just with a few more breaks. I've been exhausted for about a week now. 

Yesterday I tried using my pump to induce contractions with minimal luck. Only had a couple contractions total. And my nipples were already sore so it didn't help any. Took a bath to relax too and that felt great. Today took a shower to get ready and sure enough at exactly 40 weeks I have stretch marks that are new. First ones this pregnancy. 

Trying to love the last few days. It can be hard. But I do love this belly and having him all to myself. Can't wait to see his little face and touch him. 

No progress

Today I had another NST. All looked good. Baby moved nicely and I even had a contraction. Babys HB spiked, then dropped, and steadied back out. It wasn't a strong contraction either. But dr was happy with it. My OB checked me, and no progress. Its so frustrating. He stripped my membranes Thursday and I had a lot of contractions that night, some Friday night but they stopped before I went to bed, all Saturday night and woke up several times to them, then all morning through early afternoon Sunday. Seriously I had a LOT of contractions and absolutely no progress.

I feel like my body is failing me yet again. Yes I can wait it out longer but why? My body fails me with getting pregnant. My body fails me to stay pregnant. I struggle so hard to have these babies, and now my body is failing to go into labor like it should. I know due dates are just an estimate, but still - no progress has me pretty bummed out right now.

The OB I like only does inductions on Wednesdays. He said he would induce me this week if I wanted, or next week. If I decide I want to go ahead this week, then he said just to call and set it up. I could hold my baby in just 2 days. Otherwise I will be holding my little man in 9 days. Either way he is close.