Back from the Dr

Ok, so I got to see the dr first thing in the morning, and on New Years Eve. They did and ultrasound and saw a sac and a yolk this time. The dr didn't seem worried at all espically since it appeared larger then the last time. I am still scared though.

I then got a call back with my numbers. HCG is 1615 and Progesteron was 40.53. It was up from the 1000 and 15.58 previously, but not enough to ease my mind.

Now we just wait till the next appointment, Friday next week the 8th of January.

I think its over

I started bleeding again today but now it is bright red and some small clots. I am beside myself now. I knew something wasn't right. I am calling the dr right now, but I don't feel good, even though I had ok numbers today.

Gosh Dangit

Ok, I am going to join the group freaking out, I started bleeding tonight. I am praying I can get in to be sen tomorrow because I can't handle the stress. I am cramping but I am contributing it to the constipation. The blood is brown in color and doesn't seem to be "flowing" so I know that is good. But it wasn't just a tiny bit either. So I put on a panty liner to see how much I am actually losing just to know. At this moment I am really upset because I am not ready for this to end, its just not fair. We wait way to long to get here and spent $20,000 to get pregnant I just want this baby to be healthy.

Update: I have an appointment today at 2pm, but at the closer office, so I will likely be home by about 3:30 today hopefully with good news. And the spotting has gone down and the cramps are no longer. I am praying this is a good sign. I think this could have been because we had sex the night before, who knows though.

Update after appt:
So I had an ultrasound and bloodwork. I won't get the results till tomorrow afternoon probably. But there was a sac and only one baby. So we know that much. We will know things are ok tomorrow after we get the levels back from the blood. So yeah thats all we know so far.

Update: So the dr office called me back. My hcg is at 1000, not exactly as high as I had hoped. My progesterone was at 15.58 so they are upping my nightly injections to 1.5cc (50% increase). I am now even more worried and praying this bean has a heartbeat come Friday next week.

IVF Recap

November 18 - AF starts, called new RE to start IVF (a week early)

November 20 - u/s, Ganirelix - 250mcg

November 22 - Ganirelix - 250mcg

November 23-27 - Follistim 300 iu

November 28 - Follistim 300 iu, Luveris 75 iu

November 29 - Follistim 300 iu, Luveris 75 iu

November 30 - Follistim 225 iu, Luveris 75 iu, u/s 14 egs on one side and 8 on the other. Largest 15mm and two at 13mm

December 1 - Follistim 225 iu, Luveris 75 iu, Ganirelix - 125mcg

December 2 - Follistim 75 iu, Ganirelix - 125mcg, u/s - 25 eggs most measuring 15-16mm

December 4 - Estrogen - 3923 and HCG trigger shot

December 6 - retrevial of 21 eggs, Started Progesterone injections

December 7 - 19 eggs ICSI'd - 6 fertilized, Progesterone

December 8 - Started Medrol, Progesteronee

December 9 - 6 embryos made it, put in 2-8 celled ones and froze the other 4

December 18 - Bloodwork - HCG Beta 29

December 21 - Bloodwork - HCG 114

Beta Results and talked to Dr

Ok so I got my beta results, she said they were good, but she said they doubled, but in m book they did more then that, but again, I don't really understand beta #'s.

12 DPO - 29
15 DPO - 114

You tell me, I have no clue, but she said it was good so thats all that matters.

I have an appointment for the 5th of January, which sucks, I didn't want to have to wait that long, but I guess I have to (insert grumpy face here). So we will get to see the bean at about 6 1/2 weeks, hopefully we will know forsure if there is one or two in there.

My other questions were asking if its ok to resume sex, he said yes, Tim is very happy about this news.

I asked about the extra streength tylonol, he said that was fine, even at the full dose.

Also, I have MTHFR but I don't know which mutation, so he is putting me on Folguard to suppliment the folic acid, because my body can't process and absorb it like normal. SO this makes me happy because I really need this bean to be healthy. And I am to resume my progesterone in oil shots in the butt, YEAH.

So now we just wait.

4 weeks (Pictures)

Beta Results

This morning I went into the lab to get m blod taken for a beta. I still wasn't feeling like I was pregnant, but it turns out, I AM! I asked when my dr would get the results and the lady told me it wouldn't be until about 4pm. So when 4L45 rolled around I called the dr's office because I wanted to know before they closed for the day. While I was out I also had bought a HPT. Well Tim got home and I was waiting for a call back from the nurse, and he told me to just go pee on a stick. I honestly thought it was way too early to test espically on a home one. Well before I was done peeing I could see a second line. But I didn't let on, then I sat at the computer, and the phone rang. I answered and at this point I already saw the HPT, but waited for her confirmation. Good news, everything worked. So we are pregnant. And my beta was a 29. Not sure how good it is, but everyones reactions are pretty good towards it. I am SO pleased, but it hasn't really sunk in yet.

EDD August 28, 2010 - works for me.

Days Pregnant:3 weeks 6 days
Days left: 253
Pregnancy symptoms: So far the only symptom I have, gas, and sometimes I am a little extra tired, no issues with that.

Could it be????

SO for the past few days I haven't felt like things have worked and really at this point it doesn't feel like I am pregnant.

But (and I know I might be grasping at straws) today I had the tiniest bit of spotting when I went to the bathroom. I had on black underwear so I don't know if there is any more. And all day I have had this pukey feeling. Its more then I was just hungry too. At first I thought it was from hunger, but I have been eating all day, and I had plenty. But at first I assumed hunger because I had only had donuts for breakfast, and I was pukey feeling by 11am. Then I had a hot dog and mac and cheese for lunch, some pretzels, a pop, and fruit snacks. Still pukey. and then I had more fruit snacks and some baby oranges, still pukey.

So could it be? Could these really be the first signs of a possible pregnancy? I really truly hope so. So far this is all I am feeling.

As for if its a period, today I had gone potty more like a diarrhea which is normal when my period is about to start, and not normal with a pregnancy.

So, two more days till I get my beta's.

Transfer Day

Thankfully Tim could take me and all 6 eggs made it to today. I was so worried. He brought us into the office and my heart sunk. He said we have 3-8 cell, 1-7 cell, 1-5 cell, and I don't remember what the last one was, but I think it was a 5 cell. So we decided to put 2 of the 8 cells back in and freeze the remaining 4. If this doesn't work, he is willing to put 4 back in next time. I am still taking my progesterone and if we get the long awaited BFP then I will take it up till the 10 week point.

Thats a little scary only because I can't reach my butt to do it myself, so Tim, get ready, you are needed to poke me with a shot each night. (Totally worth it)

I am so excited, its all I can think about. Now I am off to chill with my tivo and let things settle in. I am SO ready to know already. Here's to the longest 2ww of my life.

I go in for blood work on the 18th which is only 9 days away, and again on the 21st. We will have a more definite answer on the 21st after watching the numbers change.

Still hurting

So I had the retrieval on Sunday, ever since I have had this feeling of constipation and almost like I pulled a bad muscle in my abs area. Now I have IBS and going potty is never an issue, and that part is still pretty normal, other then it hurts in my abs when I actually go to the bathroom. My ovaries were empties yet I am still peeing all the time.

Now I also noticed that my uterus is still hard as a rock right now. I only get this RIGHT before a period, and I remember it when I was pregnant. Either way. I started my progesterone injetions on Sunday night, along with starting medrol today. But I am just curious if this has anything to do with the progesterone, or what might be happening. I didn't think I would still be hurting this long after the retrieval. And tomorrow I go in for the transfer.

update on the "When" question

well the nurse is who told me that, so I talked to the dr later about our eggs issue, and he said to wait until at least the BFP. HE said we can today and tomorrow but then the transfer is Wednesday and we have to wait. But I am still sore from the retrieval so I am not really interested right now.

DH was freaking out because he is supposed to deploy shortly after that 9 week date

Dec. 7th, 2009

well I talked to the dr today, he was great to call me personally instead of having a nurse talk to me. But he said they were all shocked at how few fertilized but he is confident we will have several strong ones by Wednesday.

My feelings were that this could explain why its taking so long, and overjoyed we paid for icsi and had so many otherwise who knows, we may not have 6. I am honestly surprised how positive I am, I am sort or a pessimistic. I don't want to believe it till its proven true kind of person. but I am really trying to be positive, and its actually working.

Tim is helping to keep me positive though. The dr however said he thinks the issue lies with his sperm and my egg having issues together. Who knows, but I am glad we didn't waste time with any more IUI's.

When can we.....??

How long until we are allowed to have sex? I called the Dr and was SHOCKED by the nurses answer so I will ask the dr as well. The retrevial was yesterday and I still hurt, so I am not doing anything yet.

But the nurse told me 9 weeks after the transfer. Is that true? I can't believe we should have to wait that long.

Dr called about my eggs

And it wasn't what we hoped for.

So at the retrieval they got 21 eggs. The dr was certain that we would be freezing a lot. Well we chose to pay for ICSI just because it wasn't much on top of what we were already paying. So they were able to do ICSI on 19 of the eggs. And today when they reviewed them (or whatever) they determined that only 6 eggs fertilized.

I don't know how great 6 eggs is, but its so disappointing after having SO many eggs. Anyway, maybe this brings some light as to why we aren't pregnant yet.

But I am glad we did the ICSI.

So the transfer will be Wednesday morning. I am a little down right now, but hopeful.

Its baffling to me, but I am so glad we had so many eggs and paid for the ICSI, otherwise who knows what the results would have been

Retrevial of Eggs

This morning was my retrevial. I think it went ok too. When they gave me the IV they blew a vein, but were able to get it in the arm with a smaller needle. Tim was so great but struggled with them poking at me. I woke up a lot easier then I ever had under anastesia before so that was nice, but I was really nauseated and very crampy. I didn't really know what to expect, but I feel like I just have terrible period cramps. Good news, they were able to retreive 21 eggs. I was very excited about that number. We paid the extra for them to do ICSI, so tomorrow we will get the call to see how many fertilized. I am not sure what a normal number is, but I am excited.

Now when we talked before he said he would put in 3 eggs, and today when we were talking he said he hopes to put in 2 on day 3. I was a little shocked, because we had mentally prepared for 3. I am scared that if we only do two, and it doesn't work, there will be the what if factor. Either way, we will talk to him about it more when we have a number in sight.

Tim is stressing because he may not make it for the transfer because he has no one to cover him at work, and he would have to take off 5 hours in the day to get there and back. I really hope he is able to make it, but its not the end of the world.

I started my progesterone shots today, it didn't hurt till about 5 minutes after it was in. I had Tim massage it around as I read you should do, but its still a bit tight. And I itch at the injection site.

Anyway thats my update.

# of embryos to transfer

So we are officially in the big debate about how many embryos to transfer. If all goes as planned. The dr won't put more then 3 in, which is good because I feel that is my max. Now I would LOVE twins, and be OVERJOYED with just one. I can handle three I think, but its just not my first decision. However, I sort of think its worth chancing things. I mean I would much rather have three then chance having none. So how do you decide? I am just hoping that if 3 go in at least one or two can make it. My past proves my body doesn't seem to do this too well, so I would love to better my odds.

Anyway tell me your story and why you chose what you did. Thanks everyone

Infertility A-Z

Stolen from the "And Then There Were Two" Blog and I am doing this because although we have our baby, infertility is still apart of me.

A - Age at Which you Started TTC: 20

B - Baby Dancing or Sex: Sex

C - Children Wanted: 3-4, I can't decide and will make that decision after each child. I have one, and I know I want another.

D - Dogs/Cats/Fill In Babies: 2 dogs 1 cat

E - Essential Oils/Vitamins: B complex, and prenatal

F - Fertility Meds I've Taken: Clomid, Progesterone, Gonal F, Follistim, Menopur, Ganirilex, and Luveris are all I can remember. I know there are more though

G - Gain, What I have Gained from Infertility: Hobbies and busy body skills

H - HSG: Yes through the military dr in 2007 or 2008, can't remember

I - Infertile Pet Peeve: The unknowns and amount of info

J - Job Title: SAHM

K - Kids Names you are Afraid will be Taken:  Amelia

L - Lengh of Time TTC - 5 years and 3 months

M - Miscarriages: Three, September 8, 2004, July 2009, and Ruth - April 18, 2010

N - Number of Times you have Swiched REs: Twice because we moved - couldn't be happier

O - Overian Quality: Ok. I ovulate just not every month. I have PCOS but don't have a TON of cysts. I have only felt two cysts pop though.

P - POAS or Wait for AF: I wait. I spent way too much money over the years POAS for nothing.

Q - Quote from an Obnoxious Fertile:  Just relax, take a vacation. Everything happens for a reason. God has a plan. {bite me}

S - Sperm: Not a problem

T - Time you Tried Naturally - May 2005 - July 2008 with 3 deployments in there

U - Uterus Quality: No issues

V - Vagina: I have one of those

W - What Baby Stuff do you Already Have:  Before we got pregnant I accumulated SO MUCH stuff, tons of clothes, blankets, bottles. I can't believe how much we collected. I was obsessed with buying gender neutral and the occasional adorable gender specific items.

X - Xtra, Xtra, Hear all about it!  How many people know about your TTC Journey:  A handful. Family and a few close friends. Everyone knew we wanted kids, but not everyone knew the lengths we needed to go

Y - Yearly Exam: Yes

Z - Zits: I get them
I am sure it is due to all the hormones I am shooting up, but I just wasn't sure until I was reassured on a fertility board I frequent.

I have had the most sore boobs for 3 days now, and my nips are hard as a rock and are killing me. I am also peeing all the time. I am supposed to have an egg retrieval on Saturday and I just don't know whats normal (first IVF cycle).

Come to find out the boobs are due to the hormones, no worry, I want them to last at least to a BFP. However the peeing surprised me. Everyone suggested it was due to the oversized ovaries.

Oh well.