5dp5dt
This time around I am taking progesterone and delestrogen until 12 weeks if we get pregnant. I never needed estrogen before so I don't know why I need that extra one. My bum is so incredibly sore right now. I am covered in knots and bruises. It hurts to sit down or to have my phone in my back pocket. The thought of doing my nightly shots literally brings me to tears and its sad.
4dp5dt
Today I had this sad feeling come over me that it just didn't work. I know its SO freaking early but it wasn't because of a lack of symptoms. I can't pinpoint where the feeling came from.
As we entered into this cycle I barely entertained the idea that it might not work. I just figured our chances were really good because the two other times were a success the first time each. Then when they told us the quality of the embryos (blastocytes) was good and just ok, I was a little nervous. And right now I just don't have a strong feeling.
We shall see. I will test again tomorrow. I will inspect the readout of the test so closely. I can always see where the line SHOULD be, just its not always there. Then I will wait a little longer. Test again Thursday, and Friday. Just to see.
I got my first bfp with Leiland at 7dp3dt (10 dpo) and tomorrow I will be the same 10dpo. We shall see.
17 Month Update
He weighs in at 22 pounds even, wears a size 5 shoes, 2t or 24m shirts and mostly 18m bottoms. Some are getting small so we may be up to 24m in some brands this winter. Sleeping 12ish hours at night, and 2-2 hour naps a day typically. We are transitioning to 1 longer nap (about 3 hours) but he isn't quite ready just yet. But very close. I say by Christmas we will be down to 1.
He is still such a happy and easy going little man. FULL of snuggles: constantly gives kisses and hugs out of nowhere, and just a complete joy. He is just starting to do things to get people to laugh. Usually strangers. He is shy when he is tired or not feeling well but otherwise he will talk to anyone.
He is saying more words. More then I think I even know that he knows. He uses these pretty regularily now though - some are repeats from a previous list)
Bite
Bike
Down
Mmwah
Mom (all day long)
Walk
Please
Yes (so cute)
Dog (better annunciation)
Frog
Score (hilarious)
Shhh
Cereal
Egg
Lunch (doesn't sound right but I do know what he is saying when he says it)
No - all the time for no reason
Grapes
Cheese
He is getting a little better about sharing, if he is in a good mood. But it just depends who is around. His milk is NOT something he will let another child have though - he freaks out.
There is a ton going on with our move right now but he is taking it with stride. He doesn't even seem to notice everything is disappearing. He did enjoy the weekend outside while we loaded the POD though.
His favorite toy right now is his new shopping cart ($3 used) and a little baby doll he puts inside it. He also puts his drink in it a lot. I'll try for a picture. He likes his trike too but needs help still. With shoes on I can help him peddle and he can reach. I think by spring he will be riding it all on his own.
He is still doing great in his crib. No climbing and he barely even stands in there. When he wakes I go get him while he is tossing and fussing and sometimes he just lays and cries - waiting for me. He LVOES being greeted by the dogs. He is happiest when the dogs come in the room with me to get him. I am in no rush to put him in a toddler bed since he does so well in his crib. He does toss around a LOT at night and in naps, so I think he needs all 4 sides. He sleeps right up against the rails for comfort so I think he will fall out too easily in a toddler or twin bed. We will see though. He sleeps with his glow seahorse, a blankie, and usually 3-4 more stuffed animals. He also slept with a pillow while we were in San Diego and he seemed to like it, so after the move he will get a pillow too.
Potty training isn't started yet but I am laying some ground work for it. I have a frog potty thats been out since just after a year. He will sit on it and say pee and poo. He likes to come sit while I go potty. I have it more so he isn't scared for the most part. I now can tell when he is pooping and twice now he has told me before he pooped (within 5 minutes). I know he isn't ready yet but I can see progress to getting there. Maybe we will start around 2 years or so. Maybe 2 1/2 - depending on him.
We currently have 11 or 12 teeth. The last molar I am unsure about. We have been teething pretty hard this week so it may have come through but he is not allowing me to even look. THe other 3 are through though and I can see a good about of them now.
Leiland is still a good eater but his quantity has drastically gone down. He loves grapes, string cheese, black olives, chicken, Panera mac and cheese (no other), peanut butter, pretzels, and hot dogs.
So thats about it for 17 months.
Waiting
Yesterday I was nauseous a couple time but not bad. Then when I gave myself my shot I got SUPER light headed and nauseous and I had to crouch to the ground because I thought I would otherwise fall over.
Today very slight nausea. TERRIBLE heartburn at one point. Now my left nipple is tingling. Weird. Sorry if thats TMI
I took a cheap dollar store test this morning. I showed Tim and we both agree it was negative. But I SWEAR I could see the faintest of lines. I tried to take a picture but you can't see it. So its considered negative.
I am currently 3dp5dt (3 days past a 5 day transfer)
I will take another cheapo test in the morning, just to see. Then Wednesday I will use a real test.
IVF Update
We did our transfer on Friday the 12th. We were able to put 2 embryos in again. 1 was good quality and the other ok. The 2 we didn't put in weren't growing or were slow/ behind where they should be.
I go in for bloodwork on the 19th to see if it worked.
This weekend I SHOULD be on bed rest, light activity and that isn't happening. I SHOULD be pushing it but I am not. We have to pack and move and that makes it impossible to sit around all weekend. I think its ok though.
So because Friday the embryos were 5 days (past ovulation) that puts me at 7 DPO right now. I am considering taking a test on Wednesday just to see if it shows up.
Tim and I have both made a guess and think it will work and it will be 1 boy.
We haven't really told everyone yet. My sister knows and a few friends. If it works I won't tell everyone until Christmas just for the fun of it.
Poor baby
I KNOW this is because he molars are really bothering him right now. The last 3-4 days have been misery.
Zoo trip
Saturday we first went to get Leland's first haircut - SO cute. Then after that we walked around the zoo till closing. Sunday we did the wild animal park.
So I don't forget the funny things he said...
While watching an elephant walk through the dirt and kick up a bunch of dust, Leiland yelled "Hot!!! HOT!!! HOT!!!" Tim asked why and I explained how he realized steam is a sign things are hot, so he thought it was steam.
We walked up to the Rhinos who were eating right against the fence line, and Leiland says "Snack" - close but much larger.
As for all the animal names - EVERYTHING is a dog. Who knew. Kinda makes me smile.
First nickname
Leiland has his first nickname. His little friend Tyler calls him "WeeOow" its just so cute.
Potty training progress
We aren't potty training but do identify pee and poop when he goes. I also have a potty he sits on both clothed and nakked. Today he yelled poop. So i ran to change him and no poop. He didn't want to sit on the potty so I let it be and a few minutes later he pooped in his diaper. But thats so awesome he identified it before going. Thats progress.
TTC #2 - First cycle
Today we met with the RE (Dr. Q) to see what the game plan is. As soon as my period starts I just have to call and we will be in progress. If all goes as planned we will be transferring 2 embryos around October 8-12th. My medications were ordered today and the schedule is so much easier than with a fresh cycle. I was very anxious about the frozen embryo transfer (FET) because its so foreign to me, but really its SO much easier.
So on CD 3 I start Delestrogen .3ml shots and take them every 3 days (CD 3, 6, 9) then on CD 11 I get bloodwork and an ultrasound to check. Delestrogen again cd 12, 15, 18, 21, 24, 27, 30, 33, 36, 39. I would also start daily injections of progesterone 1ml on CD 12 and Medrol dose pack (steroid to prevent rejection of embryos) CD 13-18.
Its crazy that we are here, it came so quick. We planned to start at the end of November/ early December however with the upcoming move - things were moved up.
Im honestly scared. I am terrified of another miscarriage, another instance of Ruth, and possibly twins. BUT I am so excited to get pregnant again and to give Leiland a little brother or sister. One more month and I can know if we should expect a new family member next June.
2 molars are through
Then with closer inspection and pressing I can feel his bottom left just barely poking through.
Sick baby
Last week Thursday I watched my friends kids. While here one of them started showing signs of a cold. Then Sunday we went to a baby shower and by the evening Leiland was showing signs.
So it seemed like an easy cold - clear runny nose but that was all. As it went on it seemed to be better and one day it seemed almost gone. On top pf his cold he was teething really bad. So then Saturday we went to the park with friends and he was hood. Then it got worse. Today (Tuesday) I took him in. Last night he struggled to sleep because of coughing that was making his struggle to catch his breath.
So the dr checked on his fever, nose, ears, heart, and lungs. He was wheezing so the dr sent him for a chest xray. Leiland did so good. He was listening very well, read a book, and sat so nice for his xray. While we waited for the results I got some snacks and he loved a rice krispie. The dr took us back and said he has rsv/ viral pneumonia. We were prescribed an inhaler with a tube mask and an oral steroid.
He only took one dose of each but we will get more on tomorrow.
Aside from labored breathing the thing that tipped me off that something was wrong was all he did all day long was cry. He isn't like that ever.
I love him and his kind spirit. I just want him feeling better. I would take it if i could. But i cant so i will drown him in cuddles and love.
Molars are hard work
On top of the mood changes he also won't eat much.
Today from his nap he woke up and his first word was teeth followed by ouch. He slept maybe 35 minutes and whimpered most that time.
He still wears his teething necklace, takes teething tablets, gets advil 1-2 times a day, and sometimes he even gets orijel. He fights it all.